There is something special about taking a rest and drifting off to a peaceful place in the middle of a hot sunny afternoon. The fans were drowning out kid noises and someone turned out the light and closed the door, while mama tried to grab a few extra zzzz’s. I have been making it until mid afternoon and then my head aches and longs for sleep.
I was thankful for a do nothing day that afforded me some quiet time to retreat to my room. My sanctuary, albeit littered with kids toys and reminders that lovely little people live here, when I need some time just to step away. Even if that sleep ended in someone turning on the light and jumping on the bed just to see if I was awake (he’s 5 and I love him and we had a good snuggle).
Pain is nothing new. Having been in pain for the better part of the last 10 years with one thing or another, I can handle it, most of the time. This time, I just wish I knew what was causing the pain, the lumps, the headaches, and the fatigue. It has been a little over a month since I first went to the clinic complaining of lumps in my head and neck (on the right side only) and I don’t feel like I am very much farther ahead than when I started.
I am no closer to answers, but I have an ultrasound booked for next week. I have no idea what they do when they ultrasound your head (clue a girl in here). I have had baby belly ultrasounds before, so I assume it is similar, but that is all I have to go on. At least I don’t have to drink crazy amounts of water and hold my pee (being thankful for what I can).
At the end of August is when I go to see the ear, nose, and throat specialist. I wish it was not so far away. If I don’t get some relief soon, I might have to start being a squeaky wheel. I almost wrote squawky wheel – that might work too. If you know me at all, you know that I am good at being squeaky when I need to be. It is really hard to focus and accomplish anything when all I want to do is curl up in my room and have a nap to make the pain go away. And yes, I do have pain meds, but they wear off.
We are entering our birthday season around here which will be a wonderful distraction. Does every family have a birthday season, or just us? We start the end of July and the song goes like this – Moses, Jonah, Our anniversary, Grandpa, Auntie, Malachi, Grandma, and Cousin – finishing up on August 24th. It is a busy month. Then September, October, November are event free around here.
Another wonderful distraction will be family visiting from the US next week. We only get to see them once or twice a year and we love our time together (well, I really do, I can’t speak for them – I really hope they enjoy their visits with us). There will be 15 of us staying in our place for 5 days. Call me crazy, but I am actually very excited at having wall to wall people around here.
There is no shortage of things to be doing around here: like finishing up some client work, working on graphics for some special projects (I’m learning new skills), doing taxes (for last year, yeah, don’t shoot me), ordering homeschool curriculum (just a little behind here, come on, give me a break, I have had a headache), and the usual, daily, keeping up with a big family, kind of stuff.
Thanks for listening to me share my heart and whine just a bit. I do try to keep things positive around here, but dealing with the lumps in my head, and whatever they are, is a bit consuming for me right now and I need to be able to share those things (and how wonderfully refreshing afternoon naps are) with you.
We do appreciate your prayers.